Director of UNESCO Office Jakarta, Hubert Gijzen with staff, November 2006
I wrote this in very early office hours on Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Lately I feel that I desperately need presences of friends around me, i feel so lonely these days.
FRIENDS…that’s what i need now and later, always. Again FRIENDS. who make my days so colourful like it was before.
What a complete lonesome now!!
I think I’m too busy with my studies and my works – internship, which I think it’s normal because here is the place I’ve been dreaming of to work for. UNESCO! after years of waiting and dreaming, eventually I am here. Stick myself on it.
Instead of those joys and funs of working in here, all of those excitements, don’t give me any subliminal happiness. I am always alone.
I feel so desperate. I need real friends, not imaginary friends whom i chat with in the internet, whom I sms with and whom I talk to on the phones. So D****D boring.
I feel jealous, everytime I see people – at my age – walking with their friends in plazas, malls, shopping centres, cafes, restos and everywhere else. Why me? always alone sitting and eating my dinner in a cafe while seeing others talking with their friends – conversation partners.
That’s why I am here to look for friends and activity partners, whom I can go with to bookstores, beaches, mountains – all those TRAVELLING stuff – together!
I am done with this life, where I am always alone everywhere I go, with no final destination.
I am too young to deseprately die of being lonely all the time, all day and nite.
Well, wise men say “you are as old as you feel!” I know that I always feel young (but not with my uni mates when they made fun of my age – the ANCESTOR!) stop making fun of me! I’m still in my youth age 22, well, will turn to 23 soon.
But I do, deserve more lively life. What does everything I have mean? If I can’t share it with others.
I always spend my nites, listening to music from my MacBook, reading books that I have finished reading them. BO-RING.
Well, Here I am, a lonesome young man who looks for FRIENDS!
