Happy New Year 2009

Dear all,

On this very special occasion I would like to say,

It has been great time and experiences to have known, learned, and worked with you in the past years.

May our friendship and good relations sustain in the coming future.

I thank you for your kind support and cooperation.
I am looking forward to meeting and working together with you again.

Sincerely yours,

Mohammad Reiza
Email: mohammadreiza@yahoo.de
Mobile: +66856845076 (Thai)
+6281584472240 (Indo)
Blog: mohammadreiza.wordpress.com

Chaiyapruk Contemplation

I don’t know and I don’t understand why, there are still a lot of people, who can have fun and be happy by not being herself or himself–by being someone else that he or she is not. How can they survive and accept that condition, unless they are or feel in trance, when they feel out of their own world…

Still, how hard or difficult it is to be ourselves, the best thing to do is to befriend with ourselves, accept him or her just they way he or she is; make positive or negative list–in the sense of strength and weakness becaue I believe everyone has that. The most important thing is to understand ourselves, accept and improve or develop, in other less strong word: adjustment. If we are able already to accept ourselves, that is, actually easier to develop ourselves to be a better person and we can stop hiding what we are really not and start showing people and telling them what we really are.

To be accepted in the society or in the circle of friendships, we don’t have to be someone else that we are not; we are pretending all the time and slowly it will create a fact that we are who we are not and people start accepting ‘us’ not our true selves..what we can do now, so that we stop pretending, take off our mask and begin to accept how we really are is to be ourselves!

Bangkok Monologue

Listening to the missing voices…

One day before the turning point of life

I have been contemplating myself in the last days, as I still carry on my personal belief of 40-day birthday syndrome. Maybe, it’s only me who has this conception but somehow, after experiencing that in the last few years, I believe in it even stronger. It is about how you feel, think, do and behave in 40 days before your sacred day comes. This syndrome profoundly moves you, provokes you and annoys you but if you can deal with it with the utmost attitude, you will later be able to come up with positive, developing and encouraging results, otherwise you will shook your head and say ‘oh no, I have chosen the wrong direction.’

Turning 25 for some people could be something important but not for some others. This number is believed by Thai people as the ominous age of everyone’s life. To me, this is likely the same. This is when I should be able to make my own decision, the time for me to support myself. Having steady job and monthly salary, getting into the stage of marriage, for which I have to be responsible. Again, this is not easy for almost everyone who is nearly reaching 25. Listening to and satisfying everyone and convincing them that we have successfully passed a quarter of life, saying that everyone lives for one hundred years.

But that is not always the reality that we can deal with. Life is not as simple as it is seen. In this emerging world, people tend to judge other by so many criteria and at the end of the day they confuse themselves, they adjust the rules they have set, for the sake of nowadays’ social judgment.

Conversing with ourselves, could possibly be the best way for everyone before deciding what he or she wants in life. Talk to ourselves and we will get some answers to our questions. One evening I had a discussion and reflection with myself and I come up with some thought, like ‘If we find a hard time to advise ourselves, we are not supposed to advise others…’

Turning point

Receiving several positive greetings early in the morning, which is splendor moment of a new day. As an Indian friend of mine said, it’s just another 365-day journey around the Sun! That’s how we are, we are simply repeating the same things all over again year after year, but that is what distinguishes us and makes us special human being. I wish myself all the best and be a better person for life.

Bangkok Journal

At the Crossroad of Life, Three Different Destinations on the Same Direction

Sometimes we have difficulty to understand ourselves and we don’t know what we really want. We have dreams but most of us simply ignore them, not because we can’t make them come true but because we are too afraid to accept what if they come true or what people would say about it; we are all born as dreamers…

No one says that he doesn’t have dreams; that is nonsense, they are too afraid to admit that they have dreams, they don’t want to be labeled as dreamers. Or they maybe have forgotten that dreamer is the most challenging and rewarding job, because it is very difficult to achieve the final destination. To be a dreamer we have to be going through so many hardship, difficulties, obstacles, challenges, intimidation of people; yet we have to face mental and psychological wars, social judgment and injustice even family disagreement, it’s not easy…

The answer is now clear, why no one, exactly no one wants to be a dreamer—it is because no one can’t stand the hardship of a dreamer…everyone simply follows the flowing river of life and the rules that dictate…and they simply forget what their inner self really wants in life…

Note of the Month

Watching the movie of ‘Frequency’ was an inspirational and touching moment. Glancing back to the nick of time, recalling the memory of the past of how to face, to deal, to learn and to stand up again from failure; sentimental notion of life and survival.

How, some friends said, I failed myself to start the beginning of real life adventure and sink myself deep down into personal regret yet self-depiction through life lesson. Here I am now after months of yet another depression to deal with, hoping that I still could see the glimpse of remaining light in this long winding dark road. It’s time to revive and welcome the new sunrise of the unknown future.

‘Ambitions without the knowledge is like a boat on a dry land.’

This song was one of the soundtracks of the movie, calming and peaceful, portraying of what I experience at this very moment.

When You Come Back to Me Again

There’s a ship out on the ocean,
At the mercy of the sea.
It’s been tossed about,
Lost and broken,
Wandring aimlessly.
And God somehow you know,
That ship is me.

‘Cause there’s a lighthouse,
In a harbor,
Shining faithfully.
Pouring its light out,
Across the water.
For this sinking soul to see,
That someone out there still believes in me.

On a prayer,
In a song,
I hear your voice,
And it keeps me hanging on.
Oh, raining down, against the wind.
I’m reaching out,
‘Till we reach the circle’s end.
When you come back to me again.

There’s a moment,
That we all come to.
In our own time and in our own space.
Where all that we’ve done,
We can undo,
If our hearts’ in the right place.

On a prayer,
In a song,
I hear your voice,
And it keeps me hanging on.
Oh, raining down, against the wind.
I’m reaching out,
‘Till we reach the circle’s end.
And you come back to me again.

And again I see,
My yesterday’s in front of me,
Unfolding like a mystery.
You’re changing all that is and used to be.

On a prayer,
In a song,
I hear your voice,
And it keeps me hanging on.
Oh, raining down, against the wind.
I’m reaching out,
‘Till we reach the circle’s end.
When you come back to me again.

When you come back to me again.

Marhaban Ya Ramadhan

Ucapan selamat dari seorang teman melalui email..

Bulan suci Ramadhan datang kembali. Rasulullah SAW dan para sahabat, selalu menyambut datangnya bulan Ramadhan dengan kalimat:

“Marhaban yaa Ramadhan. Selamat datang wahai Ramadhan.”

Rasulullah, para sahabat, dan seluruh pengikutnya yang setia mengikuti jejak risalah Islamiyah sampai akhir zaman, selalu menyambut datangnya bulan Ramadhan dengan penuh suka cita, dan menangis saat ditinggalkan bulan Ramadhan.

Dari lubuk hati yang paling dalam saya mohon dimaafkan lahir & bathin apabila terdapat kesalahan-kesalahan selama ini, mudah-mudahan kita semua dapat menjalankan ibadah puasa dengan ikhlas hanya mengharap ridho-NYA & mendapat hikmah dari puasa Ramadhan ini bulan penuh berkah, bulan penuh ampunan & bulan penuh dengan kasih sayang dari Allah SWT. Amiin.

Wassalam,

Mohammad Reiza

p.s. Terima kasih Leo:-)

Another Weekend Note

August has come…

This is new day, this is new month…

I will have to finish old assignments soon and get the new one started. I have to focus and I have to be quick. This will be hard, somehow challenging to finish the unfinished business. I know that there will be tons of opportunities a head of me, once I finish all of these. What I need now is determination and strategy to eventually finish the assignment.

This is all about my undergraduate thesis…

Just want to share some facts. Last year I wrote a thesis on environmental communication using a quantitative methodology, but unexpected thing happened, my mom passed away. In the middle of its writing, I decided to stop, instead translating it into Indonesian and participate it in a national essay writing competition. That was the first thesis I wrote.

Few months after that, I attended the 1st UNESCO Asian Youth Forum on Intercultural and Interfaith Dialogue. So, from that forum, I came up with an idea to write another thesis on, specifically, the forum; intercultural communication with qualitative methodology. I know that i finished the writing late due to some other activities and advising, but I determined myself to finish it however. I did the thesis defense, but the examiners were not as happy as I thought they would be and asked me to revise the thesis after the graduation. That will be painful! so, instead of revise the thesis, I took sometimes off of the university and worked on my participation in the 5th UNESCO Youth Forum in Paris. I made it, and at least I could do something about my life at that time and not to lose everything. I thought that was the best decision, though I made some unhappy feelings of others, but that was my life, not theirs. That was the second thesis that I wrote.

Two semester off, and I returned, ‘Mohammad Reiza Return.’ I enrolled this thesis semester again, starting from mid of May. So here I am, writing an external communication of Indonesian National Commission for UNESCO. This time I combine the methodologies: quantitative and qualitative, hoping that I will get better results and motivation. It’s been almost 3 months and I will have to submit the final draft on 5 September – next month. Starting from next Monday, I will be distributing my questionnaires to the staffs of the Indonesian Ministry of National Education. This is the third thesis that I wrote.

I hope that this time I can make it in time, no excuses for lateness anymore…

I will have to work extra hard, yet, I have to take good care of myself and my health. I just recovered from a serious illness, so I don’t want to get sick again during this next two months. On the other hand, I will have to work to earn some money to cover my living cost and to pay my university tuition also my graduation ceremony…

Here is the start, no matter how, no mater what, I will persist, I will come to the final destination…

A Weekend Note

Dear all readers and visitors,

I have been away for quite a while, as I hato to catch up my undergraduate thesis writing that will due soon. Besides that, I am also assisting my university to update its official website: www.president.ac.id. I have been writing there in ‘News & Events’ since 1st of July. You all can check it out daily from Monday to Friday.

Please, keep coming to this weblog, as I am also revising and re-constructing all of the posts, so that they will look better, more readable in all operating systems and more visitor-friendly.

Thank you for all your visits, comments and supports to this weblog. I wouldn’t have gone this far without all your constant and continuous visit.

I wish you all the best and good luck.

Cheers,

Reiza

Just Small Notes…

I don’t know what makes you change-how you treat me lately, i can understand, that’s fine, that is your right, though i am not happy about it. i have been trying to be good and nicer to you and us. i just hope that this way is better for you, i will hardly try to understand it and accept it. just for you to know, my feeling to you does not change at all…i do still care about you, and i still do..i also do apologize if i am the cause of all these situations and bad feelings..i am very sorry and i really am..

Jump to another story…
This early morning i dreamt that i went to surabaya, and i saw my mom wearing veil, black blouse and trousers, she looked so beautiful and her face was so bright, then she carried a big trolley as if she just returned from abroad. she asked me to carry the trolley home, then she took shower and said she wanted to take a rest and said something, but i cant remember what it was, then she’s gone. after that, i cried out loud in my room, all alone, then the adzan started and i prayed for myself and for her…a friend said that i just felt lonely and alone, and that she wanted me to be happy, not sad…

Call for Supports

Dear all alumni of SMU Negeri 6 Surabaya,

Last night I received this text message from one of alumni of 2002 batch:

Teman-teman,

Guru kita tercinta di SMAN 6, Bapak Hadi Siswojo, terserang penyakit tumor kelenjar gondok. Estimasi biaya operasi sekitar Rp 15 juta. Bagi teman-teman yang ingin memberikan donasi dapat ditransfer ke rekening berikut:

BCA

08847 95687

a.n. Dieta Indratie.

untuk info lebih lanjut hubungi:

Adianda (2004) di 08133 1820 087

Dieta (2004) di 031 7031 1310

tolong berita ini disebarkan dan direspon secepatnya.

Terima kasih dan mari kita doakan untuk kesembuhan Pak Hadi dan kelancaran operasinya.

Regards,

Reiza (2002)